“Do you guys have to leave? I’ll miss you while you’re gone.”
Being a parent is one of the most important, but exhausting roles to be done. It is rewarding while it is also discouraging. Some days you feel like the best parent in the world, while others you feel like everything is just all wrong.
Each day is a giant step when being parent. It pushes you to your breaking points and tests the limits of your anxiety and stress. Boundaries are nonexistent, arguments are abundant, and messes are expected.
Nothing is ever fair in my home, apparently. According to my children, anyway. It feels like a constant battle every day.
Most days are very rewarding with little adventures, story times, popcorn and a movie, making brunch together, big hugs, and sweet kisses. The good days outshine every second of the yucky ones.
All of it becomes do overwhelming some days though and you feel as though you could break. But then all of sudden, everything stops when you hear “I love you mommy.”
Recently my husband and I had planned a date night and had told our kids about it. We had finished up work and picked them up from school reminding them about our date. While finding dinner for their grandmother to make them, my oldest comes up to me with tears in his eye and says, “do you guys have to leave? I’ll miss you while you’re gone.” Then my middle daughter said “I’ll miss you mommy.” While my youngest daughter is hugging my leg crying. My heart burst straight open and I started to cry. I had a rush of emotions that maybe we were doing something right with them and they do love me. Some days are very hard and you begin to question how much they love you.
In that moment though, it all melted away. All the second guesses about myself, all the nights worrying if I had been a good enough mother that day. Everything seemed to fall into place and I felt like I was doing right by them somewhere. It is such a rewarding feeling every time it happens.
Those are the moments that make it all worth it at the end of each day.
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